Loneliness

I always dream about the house that I will have one day, what I want to do for a job and where I want to go for holiday.

Somehow in these dreams I seem to be doing everything alone. How lonely is my world?

First ever 5km run!

Years ago in school I wasn't known to be keen in sports. One time Aisyah and I actually hid in the Sports Centre's toilet to do last minute revision on Geography and missed the netball training. Another time it was the college's huge longkang. Okay it was stupid, and I'll have you know that it wasn't my idea - but that's for another entry.

On Sunday I officially ran my first 5km run - somebody commented I shouldn't say it's a marathon as a marathon is a little over 26miles or 42km. So a run it is then.

Been thinking about it for a few months, partly because whenever I read the Quran nowadays I find I can't finish some long ayah without stopping midway - in short: I'm soooo unfit.

Thankfully summer means I've been working at the office, so managed to jog for an hour or two each day after work. I have to say I love it more and more. It is right that there's a feel-good factor attached to doing exercises. I certainly got that with doing this run.

Ok enough with the chitchats here's pics of the day. See if you can spot me amongst the sea of pink ladies in the pics posted on heart.fm website:

http://www.heart.co.uk/fourcounties/events/photos/more-luton-race-life-pictures/race-life-luton-157/?fb_comment_id=fbc_10150227448604630_17745547_10150227929619630#race-life-luton-157

http://www.heart.co.uk/fourcounties/events/photos/more-luton-race-life-pictures/race-life-luton-157/?fb_comment_id=fbc_10150227448604630_17745547_10150227929619630#f3da7c9880057a4

Wait a minute, where has the year gone, suddenly it's May? Ok. this is beyond scary, the next thing I know it'll be November and the year would be gone, once again!

I have soooo many things in my to do list for the year, and none of them has been crossed yet!

Update so far: Exams all done, final ethics essay also submitted (so very little effort on this one, I really hope the marker's nice and lower his/her expectations and give me a pass)

I'm supposed to go home and serve the sponsor this coming October, but cannot see that happening at the moment. I really am not ready to go home yet... Not many people know this yet, but I think I have made up my mind to stay for a bit longer.I'm sure the sponsor would be able to continue their business without me.. I'm only another number.. right?? please please do not sue me, I have no money to repay you... huhu

I'm thinking of Abu Dhabi... Seriously praying sooo hard for it, but being a pessimist, I always think of the worst, always always always. Simple reason: I hate to be disappointed. Being pessimist makes me happy, since if the result is positive, it's always beyond my expectations :)

However, for this particular agenda, I really do hope it'll turn out positive. It's part of my future, inshaAllah.

New Year!

Hello 2011! Ok I know this is a little late, but Happy new year! I can't believe it's the 2011, only nine years to 2020.. wwwoooo. sangatlah tak percaya. where did 2010 go? seriously can't even remember what happened in 2010. Ok maybe I should list down what happened:

1) Lived on my own in the flat for the first time! Wow feel like such a grown up already haha.
2) Went through busy season.. was a bit of a blur really. can't remember anything else except going to work, coming home, do a bit more work, sleep, and repeat everything again the next day.
3) Went to Amsterdam for a week of training course, had so much fun there, I actually regretted not doing much more then since I was occupied doing other stuff.. hmm maybe that's for another entry.
4) Started TPE during ramadhan, survived TPE and passed it first time! Alhamdulillah. I'm now a Chartered Accountant!! Thank you Allah!!
5) Ramadhan and Raya alone in Luton. Went to celebrate raya at the Malaysian Embassy, had an ok-ish raya, nasib baik ambik cuti..
6) Went to PMS at Sheffield just before Christmas, baru perasan I'm so old! Those girls are at least 4 years younger, rasa macam pelik kena cakap kak hannim everytime. haha
7) First time demam in a few years. Demam tapi terpaksa galas beg berat dan jalan2. Demam penghapus dosa kecik, alhamdulillah!
7) Went to Yorkshire dales with Nadiah, and slept through the entire train journey from Settle to Appleby and missed the beautiful sceneries! haha
8) Went to see the New Year Fireworks at Big Ben, and we were so clever we thought we'd try and be as close to the bridge as possible, and waited for an hour and a half. Only to find that we couldn't see the firework cos the view's blocked by the buildings! thats 2 hours of 2010 that I'm not going to get back! oh well.
9) Went for UV light treatment dan alhamdulillah I'm 99% cleared! God is Great!!!
10) Umm. tak ingat dah apa jadi.

2011? Apakah impian dan cita2 tahun ini?
1) nak jadi fit dan masuk London Marathon! InshaAllah, every weekend must go running. Started this with Nadiah last week on Sunday, will make it a habit every week from now on!
2) Nak stop taking sugar in all my drinks. Have started this, but sometimes I still put some into my tea to just remind me of how it tastes like.
3) Nak pastikan boleh hafal surah2 yang selalu teringin nak hafal, tapi slalu tak dapat nak buat sbb kena baca bukula, exams la apa la (alasan, I know!) sekarang tiada alasan lagi inshaAllah.
4) More Europe trips this year, inshaAllah akan bawak Mama&abah to a few more countries: France, Scotland, Ireland, Wales, to name a few. InshaAllahhhh!!!
5) To be a happier person and find something good in everything & everyone!

Ok ada banyak lagi, tapi cukup la setakat itu dahulu.

To a more barakah 2011 inshaAllah :)